I’ve been feeling like I’m stuck in a rut lately, and it’s starting to get under my skin. The anxiety is creeping in, whispering that life is just slipping through my fingers. I feel like I’m not living up to my full potential, that I’m somehow failing by not pushing harder towards my dreams. Even my daily commute feels like a metaphor for this mess—sitting in rush hour traffic, not because I’m scared of driving, but because I’m convinced I’m wasting precious time. My time would be better spent working on my business, riding my horse, walking my dogs, or even just taking care of my own health.

My full-time job has me feeling drained. It’s sucking up my energy and leaving me feeling lifeless and unmotivated. I wake up each day and find myself slugging through a routine that feels utterly uninspiring. I’m done waking up for a job that I couldn’t care less about, just to repeat the same cycle letting time rush by.

Throughout college, I worked a series of jobs—first as a server, then as a receptionist at a small animal clinic, cleaned horse stalls, and even babysat. Even then, while working towards my degree, my heart was only truly in one place: with horses. My college years were a whirlwind of personal struggles and a painful breakup that left me feeling lost and disconnected. Growing up, we’re all taught that success is about getting good grades, choosing a career, and working hard. This path was drilled into us from a young age, and I followed it diligently. But somewhere along the way, I realized this path wasn’t bringing me joy. It was a formula for success that didn’t account for what truly makes me feel alive.

Now, I’m in a job that feels like a dead end. It’s a role that drains my enthusiasm and offers little in terms of growth or satisfaction. I’m tired of spending my days in a place that doesn’t align with my passions. I want to break free from this routine that feels like it’s slowly chipping away at my happiness.

So, I’ve decided it’s time for a big change. I’m ready to leap into the unknown, to move from this full-time job to something that lights a fire in me. The idea of leaving this full time position to run my own business is both thrilling and terrifying—it feels like jumping out of an airplane without knowing if my parachute will open.

I need to prioritize myself and my well-being. This job is taking up so much of my time and energy that I can barely find room for the things I love. I’m missing out on supporting friends, enjoying hobbies, and simply living life. I’m done living under the cloud of stress and dissatisfaction.

The plan? To find a part-time job that frees up my time and energy so I can invest in something that truly matters to me: Building my Business!! I want to create a life where I feel valued, fulfilled, and in control. I deserve to be in a role where I’m not just a number but a vital part of something meaningful.

Taking this step won’t be easy. The fear of the unknown is real, and the comfort of routine, especially financial, is hard to let go of. But I’m ready to embrace this challenge. I’m ready to stop existing and start truly living to find the financial success and lifestyle that I have been striving for.